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[ just flopped and watching with amusement ]

Hey. In the realm of serious inquiries, can I ask you a question?

Eh? Yeah, sure, what's up?

[ actually not quite sure how to go about this ]

Takeru told you about us, right? He said you were okay with it.

Oh--yeah. ...eventually. [resisting the temptation to roll his eyes with an effort]

[ dropping his head on your shoulder ]

I'm sorry I didn't say anything about it before. I thought he had already told you. But are you really okay with it? I don't want to step on anyone's toes.

Hey--it was sort of not a whole lot of my business before. [reaching up and mussing your hair softly] He thought you'd told me, too, it was no big deal. If I had a problem I'd say something, okay? I trust you. ...both of you, y'know. S'okay.

Should we have a full disclosure agreement, now? [ grins, mostly likely just teasing ]

But for what it's worth, attractive as he is, I have no desire or intention to even attempt to pursue a romantic relationship with him. I do care a great deal about him, but he's pretty much firmly in big brother territory.

[ pause ]

The kissing and pretendy funtime dates aside.

Yeah--Jiu Wu, seriously, it's cool. ...you helped us out a lot when we weren't talking to each other, I don't think you're secretly plotting to break us up or anything. Okay? [rolls over and half-flops on you comfortably] Don't worry about it.

[ he's petting your hair and there's a pup nosing against your face ]

Thanks. I just didn't want to cause any misunderstandings; I care about both of you too much to want to do something that could have been avoided. But if anything, I think these dates are just as much training for him as they are for me. [ rolling slightly and knocking his head against yours ] You know how he is, with his stupid thinking he's not "good" enough for you and such.

It is stupid. [sounding deeply exasperated] As if I'd want him to be anybody or anything but his own self.

Well, this way he can get all his awkward bumbling out on me, and save all the good stuff for you. [ grins, poking at your side ] I promise I'll send him back in good condition.

Like I don't enjoy his awkward bumbling, too. [shakes his head, poking you back] He was so... I dunno. Formal, I guess. Stiff. For, like, ever, it was such a pain in the ass. It's sorta refreshing to see him like this. I won't keep it all to myself, though, don't worry.

I have to admit, it's kind of cute. He seems to like to say things that result in my asking questions he's too embarrassed to answer, for some reason. And then he gets grumpy at me for it.

He does tend to dig himself in like that. [grins and settles back, the puppy flopped out on his belly] Too bad for him.

And in the process of doing so, he lets things slip that are probably more legitimately embarrassing to admit than whatever it was he didn't talk to talk about. [ grins and rolls over to use your chest as a pillow, poking at his puppy ] I swear I'm going to get him to one of these days, though.

He's. Y'know. Relaxing a little, too, which is good.

[not blushing not blushing not]

He seems to have relaxed some, even in the short time I've been here. It's good to see.

[ d'awwwww cute Chiaki ]

Yeah. I didn't think he could, y'know? I like it a lot.

It might help that I generally won't let him get away with his avoidance tactics. We're both too stubborn and used to getting what we want.

Huh. Maybe you are. [looking more pensive, his hand still mussing your hair gently] I think I'm just regular stubborn.

It's not a bad thing. He needs a good kick in the pants sometimes. [ he's got a hand on your head and a hand on the puppy ]

But it's partially why we get along so well. My situation back home was similar to his.

...yeah. [tightening his grip on you a little]

[ he can feel that, yup ]

Does it bother you when I say things like that?

Nah. I mean--it sucks, y'know. But I don't want you to not talk about it.

[he doesn't really know how to say that the thought of how alone takeru was still cuts him like a knife when he thinks about it too hard, and it's painful to think of you being that lonely too]

It was a fate we both accepted. And things got better, did they not?

[ but now that he thinks about it ]

I never really told you what all went on back home, did I?